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A four year old girl and I were having a conversation at school today. We were talking about families and started in on her family. I knew that her dad was Hispanic, but she has a much darker skin tone than he. I asked her if her mom was “brown” like her and her response was “yes”.

I went on to tell her that my husband was brown like her and so were my daughters. She looked at me, looked across the room at the aide and said: You and her look the same. You are the same color”.

I looked at the aide and replied, “yep, we are the same color”.

Then she tells me, “but she has a pink face”.

This was a good observation. The aide did have a very pink skin tone for her face. I continued, “So, do I have a pink face”?

She looks up at me and replies, “No, you have a yellow face with bumps on it”.

What! I began laughing out of embarrassment and disbelief. Children at the young age of four are so honest when they want to be. And here I was, thinking that my face was much clearer than it has been in months! Oh well, she inspired me to write this.

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Alina: I think you should stop eating salt

Lisa: What! Are you crazy?

Alina: I think you should try, just for like 3 months, and see how much weight you lose

Lisa: What! I will die!!! 3 months is a LONG time

Alina: But salt makes you retain water, I think you should just see what happens

Lisa: I will DIE!

Tonight this was the dialogue between my sister and I as we sat at In-n-Out; me munching on some salty fries! I am a sucker for salt, and in a BIG way. I have to put salt on EVERYTHING! I even salt food seasoned with salt. I know, salt is so bad for me. I do not know why, but I crave it. I wake up and feel like I NEED it. I salt my tacos, sandwiches, salad, banana, hot cereal, and every dinner. To top it off, I eat fast food every day and drink a ton of soda.

I do not eat a LOT of fast food a day, but I eat it a lot during the week. If I was to stop consuming ALL salt, then that would mean I need to also stop eating out. I know that fast food is full of sodium. If I cut out the fast food, then the weight I lose after 3 months would not be completely dependent on the lack of salt, but instead the combination of no salt, fried or fatty foods. I  KNOW I would lose weight, no doubt at all. The question is: Can I do it?

If I have to give up salt and my precious soda, it would be like a heroin addict giving up heroin, a smoker giving up nicotine, a gambler giving up gambling! I have an addiction. I need help. Maybe I need to start the first SAA or Salt Addiction Anonymous! I bet my sister would love that. All jokes aside, I have a major problem that I do not see as a problem. I love salt, even though it may be bad for my health. My health is important however. I have gained a lot of weight in the past 6 years. I would like to lose 50lbs. I am not sure how much weight I will lose by cutting out salt, but I am positive it will be substantial.

This is to you Alina…I will try and cut out almost all salt from my diet. I cannot however, guarantee it will last for 3 months. So I will start day by day, then week by week. I am going to cry, complain and HATE life, but I will try my best. First, let’s see how the first week goes.

Tux

I have always been a cat lover. 7 years ago I adopted two wonderful cats; Coco and Tux. I lost them both over the course of a year and a half. Coco was killed by my neighbor’s dog last year when she snuck out of the window in the middle of the night. Just yesterday I had Tux put to sleep. It was hard losing Coco and it was harder to lose Tux. I feel guilty that she was alive as I drove her to be put to death. I listened to her meow all the way there. She stared into my eyes, and I wondered if she knew. I wondered how much pain she was in and if she would be happy or mad or sad if she did know that her life was about to end in a matter of moments. In my heart though, I feel it was best. She was sick and she won’t hurt any more. I held her tight and kissed her as she was injected. I hope that she was not scared and that instead she was comforted by my presence. She was my husband’s girlfriend, always following him into the bathroom!

Coco

I loved those two cats dearly. I will never forget them, and this is dedicated to them. My cats, my heart! I will always love you…at least the two of you are together again. R.I.P. my loves.

So this morning I received a chain text on my cell phone. It was from a phone number that I did not recognize, but this didn’t bother me because my 13 year old daughter always uses my cell phone.
The text was nice. It started with a pretty picture of flowers. Beneath the bouquet was a message that said something along the lines of a girl/woman being strong and independent. I thought it was so nice that I decided to forward it to a lot of women in my phone.
I went through the list alphabetically. I ended up sending the text to 15 women. A few minutes later my husband received the same text. He assumed it was from me, questioned why I would send him a feminine message and deleted it. Then he asked me why. I informed him that it was not me who sent it. I explained that I sent it to 15 women, but NOT him.
We were both confused. Now I was curious who sent him the flower message. Could it have been one of the ladies I sent it to? How awkward it would be if I send a flower message to a lady and she turns around and sends it to MY husband! The weird thing is that only one lady, my stepmom, sent me a Thank You text.
So here is the mystery: who sent the message to my husband and why? Could it have been the same person who initially sent it to me? I guess we will never know…

So after winning our “Lady Gaga” pink lipsticks and lip glosses, my sister did not like the color for her. We went back to the mall to exchange. It is great that Nordstrom’s allows you to return the make-up.
My sister exchanged her colors and I decided to keep mine. I liked the pink, and it has been a while since I even wore lipstick. While we were in the MAC section I saw a lady wearing a nice nude color. I asked her what colors and if I could try them on myself.
The look was great, I loved it and so did my sister. I didn’t have the funds to purchase it all so I will be returning next month to purchase it. But today my sister surprised me! We went back to MAC because she wanted some more colors and she purchased the lipstick for me!
“It is an early Christmas present”, she said to me. But hey, I sure was happy! Thanks sis, you always make me feel special when you do little things for me. Love you.

So recently my husband and I went to play some poker. We always put our names on the board to be called, and I almost always go second when a seat is available. I am not sure why I do this. So a few weeks ago, we go to the casino and when they called my husband’s initials to go, he asked me, “do you want to go first or me?” As usual, I told him that he could go. He went on his way and I was seated shortly after. I was sitting two tables away and could see him!
Just as I was warming up to the people at my table, I hear no one other than my husband’s loud roar! I turn around in my seat and see him with both arms raised in victory and yelling. Everyone at his table were giving high-fives. I quickly folded my hand and ran to him to see…could it be???
YES! His table hit a jackpot!!!!!! Oh my gosh….this was the very first time that one of us were at a table that hit. This is the main reason my husband likes to play poker at the casino. The jackpots always increase until someone wins, and on certain nights, they have Double Jackpot! Guess what…that night was one of those nights. Yes, the red light was flashing and they just hit a double jackpot for $30,000. Oh how it would have bee nice if my husband were the one with the large share, but we didn’t mind either way.
The jackpots are split 50, 25, 25. This means that the losing hand gets 50%, the winning hand gets 25%, and the rest of the players share the last 25%. So the winner took home $14,000 and my husband took home $1250. But we were sooooo happy. I think no one was happier than my husband though. He was dancing around the poker room and being his loud and crazy self. From his actions, you would have thought he won the $14,000. The man who won that just sat there and looked all gloomy.
We have been close, but close does not count. My husband finally accomplished what he has wanted for about 11 years…a jackpot. And just think, if I would have took the first seat, as he offered it to me, I could have won.  Oh well, maybe better luck next time.

I am a Substitute Teacher.
I work with children from 1 month all the way up to 12th graders! Funny that I like the youngest and the oldest the best.
Lately, I have found that what I love the most is working with the 0-5 years group. I have been exclusively subbing for the daycares. I love my job. I love the children. I HATE getting sick every two months. It’s No Buenos! 
But, as they say, you have to take the good with the bad. And the good far outweighs the bad for me.
I love when I walk into a room, and 17 young faces cheer with joy when they see my face. I have little arms thrown around my legs, babies laugh and crawl to me. The joy that they bring me, just by being thrilled that I am there with them, melts my heart. I love those children, and I love my job!

For a while, my dad and I were seeing one another three times a week. I was not working too much and I missed my dad. I decided to see him often. We didn’t do much, but it didn’t matter. I am always his little girl when we are together. Me being a wife and a mom just go out the window, and I am his little girl all over again.
In May, he decided to move to Indiana. This was a decision made to speed up the process of my stepmom getting better. I understood and agreed that it was the best thing to do. Unfortunately for me, it meant that I didn’t get to see my dad anymore. How sad 
I worked all summer long, while teachers were out vacationing, I was busting my bottom working! I was thankful to have all the work and the income. One day in late Aug. I realized I was going to use some money to go and see my dad!
After asking around, I scored some buddy pass tickets, thanks to an old high school friend. I got my round-trip airfare for a steal. So I jumped on a plane and left my children with my husband. I went to Indiana and stayed with my dad for a week. It was the quickest week in my entire life!
We went by the Colt’s stadium, Indy 500, and a whole lot of corn fields! We mostly lounged around the house. We did eat though. I love to eat, and dad took me to quite a few places.
The best part of all, was just cuddling up next to dad on the sofa, just like I did as a little girl. 
I love you dad….hurry home!

MONOPOLY is baaaaack! @ McDonald’s.
Every year I try and play, and to no avail. I never win….but it sure is fun having hope that I will get the 2 pieces I need to win that $1,000,000. I know that is a little extreme, but come on, let a girl dream! 

I decided to be a girl’s girl!
I have three daughters. I always wanted boys. I was a tomboy. But, I ended up with a son and three daughters.
So I had some credit at a fashion store. I really like the store and was excited to get a new shirt or new pair of jeans. I LOVE jeans. So my husband drives me there yesterday. I felt bad that he decided to stay in the car and wait. I mean, I felt like I couldn’t just take my time and browse, being that he was in the car and all. And then I saw it…
Eye shadow! I saw makeup and I was reminded that my daughter could really use some. I asked how much and it was only $2. I know it was generic, but for a starter’s makeup, who cares? The colors were nice. And for that price I decided to buy one for all my daughters.
I looked around but decided to buy nail polish! Just a few days ago I looked and looked for nail polish on sale. It can be so expensive. They had it for .99 cents. I could not believe it! I grabbed all kinds of colors, glitter, stars, two-tone. You name it and I got it. And I got them all a lip gloss.
When my girls arrived home from school I showed them what I got. They were surprised that I managed to be girly and buy all that make-up for them. I felt good doing for them, I always do. And I was excited that now we have every color nail polish a girl could ask for!