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A four year old girl and I were having a conversation at school today. We were talking about families and started in on her family. I knew that her dad was Hispanic, but she has a much darker skin tone than he. I asked her if her mom was “brown” like her and her response was “yes”.

I went on to tell her that my husband was brown like her and so were my daughters. She looked at me, looked across the room at the aide and said: You and her look the same. You are the same color”.

I looked at the aide and replied, “yep, we are the same color”.

Then she tells me, “but she has a pink face”.

This was a good observation. The aide did have a very pink skin tone for her face. I continued, “So, do I have a pink face”?

She looks up at me and replies, “No, you have a yellow face with bumps on it”.

What! I began laughing out of embarrassment and disbelief. Children at the young age of four are so honest when they want to be. And here I was, thinking that my face was much clearer than it has been in months! Oh well, she inspired me to write this.

Enjoy

Alina: I think you should stop eating salt

Lisa: What! Are you crazy?

Alina: I think you should try, just for like 3 months, and see how much weight you lose

Lisa: What! I will die!!! 3 months is a LONG time

Alina: But salt makes you retain water, I think you should just see what happens

Lisa: I will DIE!

Tonight this was the dialogue between my sister and I as we sat at In-n-Out; me munching on some salty fries! I am a sucker for salt, and in a BIG way. I have to put salt on EVERYTHING! I even salt food seasoned with salt. I know, salt is so bad for me. I do not know why, but I crave it. I wake up and feel like I NEED it. I salt my tacos, sandwiches, salad, banana, hot cereal, and every dinner. To top it off, I eat fast food every day and drink a ton of soda.

I do not eat a LOT of fast food a day, but I eat it a lot during the week. If I was to stop consuming ALL salt, then that would mean I need to also stop eating out. I know that fast food is full of sodium. If I cut out the fast food, then the weight I lose after 3 months would not be completely dependent on the lack of salt, but instead the combination of no salt, fried or fatty foods. I  KNOW I would lose weight, no doubt at all. The question is: Can I do it?

If I have to give up salt and my precious soda, it would be like a heroin addict giving up heroin, a smoker giving up nicotine, a gambler giving up gambling! I have an addiction. I need help. Maybe I need to start the first SAA or Salt Addiction Anonymous! I bet my sister would love that. All jokes aside, I have a major problem that I do not see as a problem. I love salt, even though it may be bad for my health. My health is important however. I have gained a lot of weight in the past 6 years. I would like to lose 50lbs. I am not sure how much weight I will lose by cutting out salt, but I am positive it will be substantial.

This is to you Alina…I will try and cut out almost all salt from my diet. I cannot however, guarantee it will last for 3 months. So I will start day by day, then week by week. I am going to cry, complain and HATE life, but I will try my best. First, let’s see how the first week goes.

Tux

I have always been a cat lover. 7 years ago I adopted two wonderful cats; Coco and Tux. I lost them both over the course of a year and a half. Coco was killed by my neighbor’s dog last year when she snuck out of the window in the middle of the night. Just yesterday I had Tux put to sleep. It was hard losing Coco and it was harder to lose Tux. I feel guilty that she was alive as I drove her to be put to death. I listened to her meow all the way there. She stared into my eyes, and I wondered if she knew. I wondered how much pain she was in and if she would be happy or mad or sad if she did know that her life was about to end in a matter of moments. In my heart though, I feel it was best. She was sick and she won’t hurt any more. I held her tight and kissed her as she was injected. I hope that she was not scared and that instead she was comforted by my presence. She was my husband’s girlfriend, always following him into the bathroom!

Coco

I loved those two cats dearly. I will never forget them, and this is dedicated to them. My cats, my heart! I will always love you…at least the two of you are together again. R.I.P. my loves.